I didn't know how much you cared, till the day I lost you.

That's so sad ):
Ok something really sad happened, because I happened to read someone's blog post.
Ok I feel so damn bad and sad ):
I cried a lot yesterday, all because I didn't know you actually cared so much.
So yah,I cried in school too.
I couldn't control & I can't stop thinking ):
So yeah, luckily Odelia & Choonkhee were there for me.
I decided to give it a try again.
I seriously can't bear to let you go.
It hurts a lot to actually forget a person you care so much for.
But somehow, somehow, I feel that, it's not like what it used to be in the past.
I am really so sad now.
Now I know the blog post was actually random, I was like so shocked.

The tears just keep on dropping, and I found out life without you is depressing.

Guitar tomorrow, Haiz, didn't practise.
I'm gonna be so dead if miss sin tests us tomorrow.
I just don't have the mood for everything.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day and that the promise will be kept and it will not be broken ):

I'm here to post.
I feel so depressed.
I can't even look at my own blog, my OWN blog!
When I want to go to my blog, the anti-virus thing say "a trojan horse was found".
Then they prevent it from attacking my com, and thus causing me not able to see my blog.
So damn pissed. Hmpf!

Maths trail today.
People in my group : Choonkhee, Hillary, Pearlene(leader).
Kinda interesting.

Me and Choonkhee are kind-nice Singaporean citizens.
There's this woman at the airport terminal 1,
she was like sitting at one of the chairs at the cafe, then her hand stick out of the railings and littered!
How mean of her!
Then she stood up and went to the washroom.
So being nice people and seeing that people littering is like not beautifying the nice and clean airport, we stood up from our seats and walked to the litter and picked them up and threw them away.
Just as we stood up after picking up the litter, the woman returned!
We were so afraid!
Because we didn't know whether she still wanted the litter.
The litter consist of onion rings and chilli sauce from BK.
Ok then we found out that it's no use fretting because she threw those stuff on the floor, so obvious it will be classfied as "litter", she wouldn't possibly want to pick it up and eat right?
AHAHAHA.

Having bad cough now.
I can feel blood in my throat, but choonkhee and odelia don't believe me :(
I drank 3 litres of water today.
I brought this uber big water bottle to school today.
Today is world record man!
I think I went to the toilet for about 10 times xD
Ok I'm being sarcastic but it's around that number ok!

Miss Sin changed me and choonkhee from guitar 2 to 1 for El Vito.
So now only Adios is guitar 2, the rest is guitar 1.
Haha so cool ^^
El Vito guitar one is easy!
I was expecting it to be tougher than guitar 2 but it turns out to be the other way around =D

Tears are falling from my eyes,

as I sit and cry at night.

blood is dripping from my heart,

as I try to write.


I have so much pain,

I'm hurt a lot,

I can't explain all this,

I'm just falling apart.


no one understands,

I don't know where to start

and I don't know where to end.


love hurts so much,

like a thousand stabbing knives,

especially when you have all this pain,

that you wish you could deny.


I'm so sore right now,

my heart is racing fast,

you told me love is happy

but now I am sitting here with all this pain,

I don't understand.

I wish U can kiss them all away

but no matter how much I try to forget about

this pain...I cant cause my heart is telling me,

the only one who can take the pain away is the

same person who gave it to U.



Tonight will be the last night .....
The last night I will relive our last time together....
Tonight will be the last night that I beg God to send you back to me....
The last night that I will criticize myself for not being what you wanted....
Tonight will be the last night that I wonder how you are...
what you are doing and who you are with......
The last night I will torment myself of thoughts of you in another's arms....
Tonight will be the last night I wonder why you are unable to love me....
The last night that I will think of myself as "unlovable."
Tonight will be the last time I cry like a wounded animal till I fall asleep....
The last night that I toss and turn with thoughts of you....
Tonight I will free myself of you...
YOU who turned and walked away without so much as a glance....
Tonight I let you go....


Seriously, thanks for everything.
Everything that happened for the past one year.
Especially all the happy moments and not really the unhappy moments.
I am really very happy to have been with you for one year.
Exactly one year...
But now here you are leaving me with all the pain and sorrow.
Nothing can ever replace the hole u made in my heart, the amount of pain you inflicted on me.
I shouldn't have made the promise with you after PSLE, knowing that this will not come to a good conclusion.
It was so foolish of me to have like you and to make the promise.
The 2 poems above are dedicated for you...

CIP date with clique today ;D
Ok actually we couldn't get a slot.
So a long story, blah blah blah then the person let me and hillary and no one else to go cip only :(
so sad choon & odelia couldn't do cip till 5pm :(
I feel so sad for them.

Anyway, before going to school to wait for choon and odelia, me and hillary went to pet lovers' centre again!
It's been the third time in this week!
Haha! The shop-keeper even recognised us!
Ok this is so retarded-.-

So at 2pm, me and hillary went to do CIP while odelia and choonkhee went reading at the teens zone =/

After that around 5pm i had a dirrohoea so yeah :(
At 6pm we stop CIP because my hand was aching and hillary was feeling giddy after playing audition till 5am =.=
Then we went to borrow some books.
And we waited at the library till 7pm and we went mac to eat dinner ;D
Me and choon had macwings while odelia didn't had anything and hillary had fillet o fish (:
Odelia ate all my fries!
So I ate choon's xD
After that me and choon shouted "LOOK! It's that st. pats guy again"
Indeed indeed odelia and hillary immediately looked!
Haha and hillary was like "where?where?where?wheerreee?wheeeerreeee?"
Haha and we repeated that trick for 3 times and all three times hillary keep replying "wheeeerreeee?"
She must love that st pats. guy very much ;D
Haha!

OK that was so damn funny.
And I keep dripping the mcflurry ice=cream on my pinafore!
HMPF!
And hillary said I sounded like a horse -.-
Oh and when I was waiting for the taxi at the taxi stand,there was this super big cockroach with wings!
I was praying so hard wishing that the taxi will come straight away!
But then it kept coming towards me and I keep retreating back!
HAHA!
Luckily the dear taxi came :D
I love you taxi-uncle for saving my life. hehes ;D

Breakfast date with clique today ;D

OK, seriously have nothing to say.

Oh yah oh yah!
Exams are over and I feel so high and happy ;D

I declare I adopted a daughter called Koh Choon Khee on monday.
I hereby love her with all my heart and she will forever be my daughter xD

I can't belive you lied!
Never am I going to believe you anymore.
I shall beat you in exams till you die!

What kind of friend am I?
Then what kind of friend are you?
A friend who lies to everyone and act as if you're so innocent?

This is really getting me up to my nerves.
I'm telling you all this could have happened is all because of her.
Freaking her, scram and get out of our lives.
I want back the normal lives and friendship me and her had before you came!

Today I learnt a new word.
It is silver ants!
-as taught my KOH CHOON KHEE =D

We indeed saw silver ants on the floor ok!
SO cool ^^
No lah, ahhas.
Actually it's' several ants but somehow we changed several to silver ants!
So along the way home, we kept saying silver ants!
I feel so high after school on the way home with choonks :D
Although I feel like a retard xD

SOVA is surely a killer.
I am so going to fail.
I wasted so much time in printing the notes man!
Waste time, waste ink -.-

Oh, i miss J301 very much.
I miss the beautiful garden outside, the very nice neigbours(2.7 & 2.8), the nice scenery outside.
Although it's kinda warm in class, but i don't mind ok!
I hope to go back there soon =D

Please please please anyone wants hamsters? :(

Anyone seriously wants hamsters?

FOR FREE OK!

But you must be resposible ok!

Yah yah.

My dearest hamsters gave birth 2 time and now she's going to give birth tomorrow again =.=

So someone save me and adopt them!

Haven't been posting for days.

Since bernie said I didn't update, well, here I am.

Was in a really bad mood this few days.
Quarrelled with choonks on wednesday.
I was real pissed at her because of EP.
Well, shan't tell you people more =x

Well oh well, I feel we are drifting further apart.
We aren't that close anymore.
You are going with someone else, me too.
Maybe this will be our conclusion?
After 9 months, this is the end?

Okays... I think seriously there is a problem with me.
1 hour ago, I can be real pissed and irritated.
Next, you see me going HIGH and saying HIGH stuff.
Later, you see me getting all moody and sad.
I'm emo! - according to choonks.

I'm seriously sleeping at 2am everyday.
Studying, studying, studying!

Till now I owe choonks a love letter *smirks*, angela 10cents, vanessa $1 and bernie BUBBLE GUM.
Yes yes I know it's bubble gum, not chewing gum, so relax :D
I must remember to return angela and vanessa $$$!
It's not that I have no money ok!
I just keep forgetting >.<
KOH CHOON KHEE & BERNADETTE LEE! ANIME IS NOT PORN!

I am so sad :(

This morning just when i woke up, 2 of the hamsters went loose.
They were scurrying the whole house and I had a hard time chasing them.
My mum was just screaming down there and not helping me. hmpf!
When I got home, one got stuck at the window there and died :(
Another one was under the chest of drawers.
I had a hard time luring it out.
Once it got out from under the drawers, I moved my hand and it shrieked and ran back under the drawers!
So clever me found a container and poured some food there and then I think it was real hungry and it came out and went into the container to take the food.
Just when it was about to run away, I took the container and covered it with my hand.
That's how my dear hamster got saved by me -.-
I feel so sad.
The hamster died because of me!
As I was trying to catch it, time is passing by...
So my mum told me to just prepare to go to school and catch the hamsters when I got home, but it was all too late :(
Sheesh. I feel like crying.

That hamster, which I have been looking after from the day it was born to this very day.
Watching it grow from a weak and pink puny hamster to a big, active and furry hamster.

In memory of my dear hamster
18 August - 18 September 2007


Oh and don't be surprised if you see my not online till the exams are over, cause I'm into studying till 2am everyday.
Only able to sleep 4 hours but anyway.
Make a little sacrifice for a big benefit.

And koh choon khee, stop going online le lah.
Don't you have ______ & ______ to beat? ;)
So jia you and study study study!
Hope your gastric is better now :D

I've lost count of how many days it's been since i last bathed. I now officially cultivate fungus. Yesterday i found a whole forest under my armpits! i have decided to keep them. It's hard not crossing my arms, i hope i don't squash them.They're my only friends right now, no one else dares approach me. not even choonkhee, well not without her gas mask of course. I feel depressed, i can't shave my armpits anymore with out hurting my fungus.So i have decided to stop shaving. so people, if you see some black, curly-wurly stuff sticking out of under my arms, then you know what it is. Just yesterday Bernie saw what was under my armpits and she asked me if that was weed and asked me to sell her some. I didn't know she took drugs! Also, a family of flies have made my hair their new home. So i cannot possibly bathe! Or else so many creatures shall lose their homes!I shall post more when more things start growing on/out of me.

Today me and choonkhee stayed in school.
Choonkhee was supposed to have drama meeting and I was only supposed to eat lunch with her.

In the end, choonkhee's drama meeting was cancelled.
We didn't want to go home so early, so we stayed in school to play =p

As I have brought cling wrap for the miss natural vegetation pagent(how ever you spelt it), the geography thingy, so I had tons of cling wrap left.
So I tore some and then I started playing with it.
Then an idea struck my mind and I took the cling wrap and hit it on choonkhee's face.
And AHAHAS it got sticked to her face and was dangling down there. SO FUNNY!
After that, she got real pissed and she wanted to take revenge on me.
So we went around running in circles with her taking a cling wrap on her hand and chasing me xD

In the end she managed to stick it on my face because I was too tired and wasn't paying much attention to her.

We played till 4pm.
Hahas, so fun.
Then we wanted to prank call anyone, but we especially wanted to prank call angela xD
We went walking around looking for public phones but there wasn't any, so in the end we decided not to prank call anyone.

Played the game with bernie again.
Once again I won :D

I feel so tired nowadays, maybe I have not much energy left :O

I am in the state of depression

tsk tsk.
As a result of me slacking too much and not being studious,
I have got bad bad bad results T.T

Literature- 15/25
English-19/30

I feel so depressed now.
I got B4 for this 2 subjects.
I am so in a state of depression.
I haven't got so low for literature before ok.
Somemore I got an A2 for mid-year and now...

Never mind, 13 more days to SA2.
I shall start studying.
People, don't be alarmed if you don't see me online or I am online but away,
cause I am studying

So yah, people, stop slacking.
Time to hit the books before your marks go flying away.
Good luck people for SA2.
Get A1s for all subjects!

Got back our results for maths, geography & science yesterday.

VERY VERY happy i got good results ;D

Just that geography dampens my mood.
I got like 50/100.
Just passd -.-
For the paper I failed T.T
7/15.
I could get an 8 ok!
Careless me :(
Anyway, it was the fieldwork project which helped me pass :D
So i must thank my group members especially sweeying who made the fieldwork project get an 8/10 ;D

Anyway,getting back the science paper was fun.
Mrs Tan was like saying "ok, everyone get your papers and see your marks. If you get 40 and above, you dip your hand into this plastic bag and take whatever that you've grabbed."
LOLS!
Then people in front were like walking back to their seats without dipping their hand into the plastic bag, except for 1 or 2 people.
I was like oh my gosh!
Those smart people didn't get 40 and above, me leh? Surely fail already lah.
So when Mrs Tan called my name I was panicking like mad -.-
I saw my test paper and I was like "omg yay i passed!"
got 41/45 :D
Man! I feel oh-so-happy ;D

Maths was kinda scary.
I didn't even check the paper.
Just as I finished writing, the time was up.
I thought I a bound to fail and make many careless mistakes since I didn't check.
I didn't dare to look at my paper when I got it back.
Cynthia was the one who helped me xD
I am scared of looking at the marks on test papers >.<
yah!
She was like "aiyah, you got higher than me lah!"
Before that she already said she got A1, hahas so I was like phew!
Got 43/50.
Once again, I feel oh-so-happy ;D
Made 2 careless mistakes or else I could have gotten 49/50 -.-
Cause of of the question was 5 marks and I just did one small minor mistake, I got the whole question wrong.
But at least Mrs Lee gave me 1 mark ;)

Currently having 2 A1s and 2 C6s -.-
A1s for science and maths.
C6 for higher chinese and geography.

I have learnt to work hard from today onwards!

Today i smelt a really bad smell. A smell so bad it was worst than ChoonKhee's farts! Can you imagine how bad that was? And that smell kept following me where ever i went. So i asked my mother if she smelt anything and she told me that the smell was coming from me and that i've always smelt like that since i stopped bathing. I was shocked out of my wits(not that i really have any)!! I've been smelling like corrosive farts for 8 weeks already and no one told me? Oh wait, no one has even talked to me for the past eight weeks, except choonkhee, cause i was too smelly to approach!
Choonkhee later came over to my house so we could discuss my problem and i said," Choonkhee, I think i'm undergoing some changes with my body!"
and she said," OMG! YOU'RE GOING TO TALK TO ME ABOUT PUBERTY? FINALLY SOMEONE WILL TEACH ME! SO WHAT IS A BRA?"
and then i replied," WTH! I THOUGHT YOU KNEW, THAT'S WHY I CALLED YOU, YOU NITWIT!"
then choonkhee replied," I KNOW! WE CAN ASK SMARTERCHILD! MY NEW ROBOT FRIEND ON MSN." so for the rest of the day we had fun asking SmarterChild about puberty.


I will never write such disgusting stuff -.-

Ahhas!
Found a very cute short anime.

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=7874

please go watch ;D

Gosh!
I miss the computer so much xD

Went to pinkie's house for that drama thingy and sleepover.

Pictures to share with everyone :D


our feets xD mine;; pinkie;; jasmine;; cynthia;; kaili ( in clockwise)


our feets again with a marshmellow in the middle. it really looks like a sheep xD


pinkie yawning. hahahas =x

Sat on the trampoline at night and eat marshmellows and talk!
After that we lie down with out heads together, we could practically feel the whole trampoline sinking down xD
ahhas!
anyway, the drama thingy's nice and everything's nice :D

Watched Hairspray with my dear cousin, adora, today :D

We ran like 2 cinemas -.-
First we went to Cathay cinema near dobby ghaut at the time slot was 3.05pm.
The time was 1.20pm when we reached there.
We aren't that insane to wait there and shop there since there isn't anything nice to shop and see
Then we decided to go to plaza singapura.
We reached there at 2.05pm.
The time slot was 2.00pm!
We should have went plaza singapura first man!
So we pondered for like 15 mins down there.
Our final decision was we shop at plaza singapura till 2.45pm then we walk back to that cathay cinema.
So yah my dear cousin saw this really nice shirt and she pondered for like 10 mins and in the end, finally, she bought it xD
So yah, we reached the cathay cinema at 3.00pm.
My cousin then went to choose this side seat.
Then we pondered at the snacks bar for 5 mins to choose what kind of popcorn set we want xD
So we went into the cinema at 3.10pm.
When we sat down, I realised something so SPECIAL :D
We are the only ones seating at the side seat!
The rest of the people are seating in the middle.
=.=
I feel so awkward ok!
HMPF!
Yah, hairspray's a very nice show ;D
The air con was so cold inside it freezes me and makes my teeth chatter =.=

After the show we went to shop again and we went PC Bunk!
Kinda scary cause there got a lot of ________ =.=

Then we went back to AMK hub to eat sushi!
yay-ness!
sushi! sushi! sushi!

oh yah oh yah!
our drama group is staying at pinkie's house tomorrow :D
I hope it will be fun fun & fun!
I haven't done research though.
Should start them now ;D

World News

Today, Tan Bao Yi, invented a new kind of meat. It is called the Germaine-Turtle meat.
It is currently sold in leading supermarkets.
It's nett price is $10 for 1kg.

Common asked questions

Why is it so expensive?
The reason is because it is made from the real germaine meat and it's tasty and crunchy.Once you pop one into your mouth, it will go 'crunch crunch'! Totally feels like a chewing gum!

How is it made?
Firstly, Germaine Tan will be washed in a high-end detergent. Then she will be hanged out to dry to make the crispyness. Then she will be BBQ-ed at a BBQ pit at East Coast park. She will then be roasted for 2 hours to make the inner meat tender and crispy. The meat will then be cut into small pieces. Then it will be packed into packets of 10. It is convenient and easy to bring around and eat.

What is so special about it?
The small pieces comes in the shape of turtles! Germaine loves turtles so her meat will be in turtle shapes too :D

HURRY! GET YOURS NOW IN LEADING SUPERMARKETS!

Call 61234567 or email at germainetan@germainmeat.com for more enquires.


Hurhurhur!
Germaine, I hope you aren't angry with me.

Germaine da great!
Germaine da bian tai!
Germaine da emo girl!
Germaine da guitar obssesser!
Germaine da turtle lover!

Yay! I want to paint germaine with turtles all over her face!
She's simply obssessed over turtles!
So everyone, start taking your paintbrushes and paint a turtle on her face or on her room's walls :D
Stop hesitating, you will never regret! Go to 3/4 and find her now xD

Today I made bernie mad, I really didn't mean it.
I feel so guilty now, please forgive me yah?

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AUNT!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BERNADETTE!

hehes.
It's so BORING...

I pracitised guitar in the morning and I found out that I could actually play guitar 1 part in the "Journey" song!

I feel so p-r-o-u-d :D
KOH CHOON KHEE!
You womanly woman!
Don't think that you're the only one who can play guitar 1!
I can too ok, I can play smoothly but not that fast.
At least you can't play the school song.
LALALA~

Woots, I feel high.
Maybe cause it's the holidays!
HEHES.
But holidays aren't for fun, they are for studying and doing revision ):

I miss so many people now.
Especially people like choonkhee, angela, bernie and teresa.
Gosh!

I went on a shopping spree today at Junction 8 :D
My mother almost killed me man cause I spent like $100+ xD
Wanted to buy billabong pencil case and wallet.
But all those that the shop was selling were sucky.
So i didn't buy.
Hahas.
Then me and my mum went to OP and found this really nice wallet and pencil case.
But then I think that I still wants billabong, so yeah, didn't buy it in the end.


I'm depressed now.
Because of _______ ):
tsk tsk.
only choonkhee knows what the blank is =[