A silver for SYF. =/

You can't expect me to smile and pretend that everything's okay because apparently it's not.
Just don't understand why some people can't zi dong yi dian.
We all put in a lot of effort too yeah ?
Okays, let's be frank.
I cried okay?


Oh and happy birthday natpoh [:

SYF today.
I think we rock :D
saw Emily there, hahas ;D
Results out tomorrow at 3pm + , so stop asking -__-

Okays bye, discussing geography project now =/
[below is my own rants, please do not continue reading if you hate my rants]
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Oh and I had a nose-bleed during a.math today.
Apparently I sneezed and one of the veins snapped which caused it to bleed and now my nose hurt like shitzxzz O:

Lazy to post.
Nothing to post about.
Shall not post till I feel like posting O:

Exams are coming, don't feel like studying =/
Actually no matter how much I study, I can't be AS SMART AS SOME PEOPLE.
So why bother? =/

Don't understand why some people just irks me, just fck off please? -.-

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY NIGEL :D
I remembered you told me your chinese name was lalas :X
LOL -__-
15 years old le uhh,lao le , don't so childish le :X

School's horrid, fcuk you beetch -.-
E.math mock paper tomorrow, shall go study now. toodles peeps ! :D

I've decided to MIA from blogging till exams are over and I will only blog super duper important events (:

Post a quick one.

Had a horrible stomachache in school today, popped in two panadols.
Thanks uh "darling" jiele for your powderful panadol *smirks*
Sat with her in class today,she's retardeee :X
Go draw a tatoo on my hand , and still go write "from ck" -.-

Went library with hillary after that, ate swensens for dinner.
Came home, had a horrible stomachache again, so I ate my stomachache medicine -.-
Damn stressed -__-
[okays sorry I'm ranting, don't read if you don't want to =/ ]
So much homework today.

1) A.Math assignment.
2) 3 SS essays.
3) 2 physics past year papers.
4) Physics chapter practise.

So freaking effing pissed.
My aunts rather watch their tv show than help me with my a.math homework ):
eff them. :X
& I got pissed and burst into tears -.-
SORRY FOR THE RANTS DDD:
PMS-ing luhh, cos you know luhh, THAT came -.-

Anyway, early well wishes.

Happy 15th birthday Nigel :D
& happy 6 months <3>

Happy 3rd month , meimei <3
Happy 15th birthday to Elizabeth :D (I can post it now because apparently the whole class knows already :X )

& it's one of those horrible suckish emoish day -.-
forks the world -.-

I'm procrastinating (:
Still have kou shi to prepare, phyiscs wksheet, literature passage-based, IJ 2007 E.math paper, E.math assignment 2.
Zomg, I just realised there's seriously a lot -.-
Shall post about school :D

During geography, natpoh was putting her contact lens into her eyes.
Miss Yip walked to her table.

Miss Yip: Why are you crying? Are you alright?
Natpoh: No I'm not!
Miss Yip (looks at me): You bully her is it that's why she's crying? *stern look*
Me: I never !
Natpoh: No I'm not crying !
Miss Yip: Are you sure you are alright? You're not being bullied? Do you want to change seats? Do you want me to punish her(referring to me)?
Natpoh: No I'm alright!
Miss Yip: *looks at my worried look* Okays you know I was only joking. *smiles to us*

Rofl, so retarded -.-
Then after the volunteers drew the diagrams of the coast,

Miss Yip: Eh the girl who makes people cry, what's your name?
Me: *turns back to look at her* Huh me? Bao yi.
Miss Yip: Huh? louder please.
Me: BAO YI !
Miss Yip: oh okays bao yi and the girl that cried, what's your name?
Natpoh: Natalie.
Miss Yip: Okays later bao yi and natalie will explain to us what the diagrams mean.

-finish explaining-

Miss Yip: Okays you two now go back and shake hands and be friends back again.
Me and Natpoh: *wth look?*

That's so lamezxz ._.

Since it's free cone day from ben n jerry's and our class ended at 1pm today, when the bell rang, Miss Nander didn't allow us to be released until we finish all the questions inside the textbook, and coincidentally she picked chewing to answer the last question and everyone was pressurizing her to answer the question correctly then it's either she spoke too soft or it's the wrong answer, thus Miss Nandar kept dragging on and on.
The 3/5 people were all standing outside our classroom watching a good show through the windows.
Then when chewing answered the correct answer, everyone cheered and rushed off.

Hahs okays that's all for now.
oh &
Grats to CHIJ Choir on getting Gold for SYF (:

OMG !
The philippines picture !
With woodlands secondary, LOL :X

Jieleing uh, which is ur toilet guy uh? *smirks*



LOL, it's so yin and yang -.-

Went to see a doctor yesterday.
It wasn't food poisoning at all (:
Some intestines thingy -.-
& the doctor said if I come a little later to see him, I might have vommited.
Hahas.

Was falling asleep during a.math yesterday.
Now I don't understand the ln thingy O:
Yesterday was the last day of physics remmedial D:
Had some cartoonist teaching us how to draw cartoons during assembly.
Went to eat ice-cream with choons after school.
I think fridays ice-cream are nice, but not on any other days.
[it's proven ! :D ]

Time to study chem, bye darlings :D

Grats to IJ dance ensemble on getting gold with honours for SYF :D
&
exactly 3 more months to my b`day x)

I think I'm having food poisoning from the seafood hor fun I ate at the hongkong cafe me and hillary went just now -.-

Anyway, so coincidental can !
Choonji and I are playing for morning assembly together on her b`day ! :D
;hehe (plans a surprise xD)

School's boring.
I feel like pon-ing school tomorrow O:
My stomach hurts -__-
Okays I'll be nice and go to school for the sake of CHUNJI (see I'm so sacrificial :D )

Time to chiong a.math homework, bye peepos and iBLESSyou xD

Finished all my previous blog posts.
Once again, it shows the childish side of me.
I miss EP, I miss 2/1 '08 ...
Chionging lit passage based with chunji now :D

I love my peachy (:




Stole this from chunji's blog :X
See our height difference, it's getting smaller ! Wooohooo xD
Okays I tiptoe-ed ):
This was taken last saturday when my ripples sandals broke.
Then I was taking the staple to staple the broken part to the shoe hahahs -.-
But then while walking halfway, it broke again O:
And I had to stand somewhere to wait for chunji to help me buy a sandals.
& she went watson to buy me some ahlian sandals LOL.
But it's nice okays ! She agreed too :D
Thanks ah chunji :D *wink wink*
Moral for the day : expensive sandals' quality sucks but cheap sandals are comfy (except for the part that it's rubberized) and they don't break.

urgh, horrible horrible horrible D:
My heart hurts , as in literally hurts badly ._.
I haven't finish my e.math .
I haven't finish the international friendship day gift.
I need sleep, I'm tired and giddy and hungry ):

School's fun :D
Before school started, was "bickering" with jiele O:
Assembly, talk about easter week and international friendship day week.
After that, there was the international friendship day dance.
Danced with the class and we had to go around dancing with different people in our class xD
After that was a.math =/
Didn't understand a single thing Mrs Khoo was talking about (:
Then the school gave each of us hot-crossed buns to remind us about Jesus (am I right? :X )
Wanted to eat them during a.math lesson because I was damn hungry but they didn't give out and I was telling natpoh how hungry I was and that my stomach was grumbling -.-
During recess, 5 mins before chem, chunji, jiele, phyllis and I were chit-chatting.

Jiele: Eh choonkheea ah why alicia's blog got your ah-lian pict ah?
Choonkhee : Huh? Olympic?(ah-lian pict)
Everyone : *laughs*

After school, stayed in class with alicia xiaomeimei to do homework and gossiped [:
Halfway, we went 7-11 to buy sweets.
We bought the super sour sweets and we went back to class to "dare" each other to eat O:
They were seriously damm sour -.-
After that, went to pizza hut to eat dinner with chunji.
Rushed to thomson plaza for dental, pink braces :D (my last month with braces )): )

How i wish I have a father or an older brother to protect me and be there for me ...

Went to watch Hotel for Dogs and Confessions of a Shopaholic with Hillary and Huikhin today :D
We were late for hotel for dogs movie though.
The movie is very nice because there are animals everywhere in the show xD
The girl so chio :x
Some parts of the show were sad, I was crying -.-
After the show, we went to watch confessions of a shopaholic.
As in was the same theatre, we said "aiyah let's sit here lahs since same theatre".
But we decided to go out since the people had to clean the place =/
As for confessions of a shopaholic movie, we sat in the same row again, but this time, at the other end xD
The girl seriously spends money like it's water -.-
Hillarious movie [:

After that, we went bunk :x
Then we had hong kong food at plaza sing, that hillary is seriously crazy over hongkong food -.-
They charged a plate of food less, so we hurried paid the bill and ran off xD

P.s, thanks huikhin for booking the tickets for us and sorry for being late D:

School this week was okay though , except for the horrible english lessons .
Had guitar on monday, and for tuesday, it was the best day ever :D
Miss Nandar and Miss Yip didn't come, which means the periods after recess were freeee :D
But well, we took the period to do the class's recycling box. We used to leftover wall paint and there wasn't any paintbrush, thus we used folded newspapers to paint.
While painting halfway, Rina accidentally touched the newspaper on my blouse and it has a big patch of green now. It's not washable fyi since it's wall paint.
After finish painting the whole box, our hands were all stained with green paint.
So Choon, julyn and I went around look for the cleaners to ask for thinner, but apparently all of them disappeared, so we went to the general office and the lady there told us to go the science lab O:
When we went to the science lab, the kind kind lab assistant gave us some acid thing O:
It has a cool feeling to the touch but it stinks your nose, so the three of us were coughing while cleaning our hands :x
Well, my hands are clean now, but not for my nails and they're still green ._.

Guitar as usual on wednesday, as there were too much homework, choon and I did our homework while having dinner O:
By the time we went home, it's alright 8 plus -.-
Oh and we had our 2.4km trial run, and well I passed :X 17mins plus, okays lahs I know I'm slow ._.

Thursday, which was yesterday, Xie lao shi went for basketball match, so we had 2 free periods xD
But we had to do the worksheet which calls us to reflect on the passage -.-
Can't remember what it's called, hou gan I think :S
After school, went to the library with hillary.
Had lunch with her at sakae sushi and we sat natpoh the awesome desk partner and she scared me but tapping on my shoulder -__-
We slacked and talked a lot xD
Pictures to post :D


oh, and that's hillary O:


my dog and I :D it's a nice shot because he looked into the camera :D:D [sorry for the unglam leg at the back, that was my aunt's :X ]


o_o what's with that ghostly hand touching choonji's pinafore O: xD


The suposedly look a lot like jay chou guy ! Pssh, it's the one in black, not white ! -.-"


Last but not least, the 3/6 '09 guitar peeps :D It's blur because we were trying to take the picture on the escalator and in order to do so, we took the escalator up and down xD

Found this story online :]

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went on a trip with a club; I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I decided to confess my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him, but by his side were many other girls. To me, he was the only one. But to him, maybe I was just another girl.
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.

“I can’t.”

“Why? Do you need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.

“No, I’m going to meet up with a friend.”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word “love” only came out of my mouth. Ever since I knew him, I’ve never heard him say, “I love you” before. For us, there was no such thing as anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued until 100 to 200 days. Every day, before we’d say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll. He did this every day, without fail and I didn’t know why.

Then, one day…

“Um, Jin…I…”

“What? Don’t drag. Just say it.”

“I love you.”

“You, um…just take this doll and go home.”

That was how he ignored my three words—he just handed the doll to me. Then he disappeared, as if he was running away from me. The dolls that I received from him filled my room, one by one. Then one day, my 15th birthday came. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him and so I stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But lunch passed, and so did dinner. Soon, the sky was dark and he still didn’t call. It was tiring to look at the phone. Then around 2 am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me up. He told me to come out of the house. I felt happy and ran out as quickly as I could.

“Jin!”

“Here, take this doll.”

Again, Jin gave me a little doll.

“…What’s this?”

“I didn’t give it to you yesterday so I’m giving it to you now. Well, I’m going home now. Goodbye.”

“Wait! Do you know what today is?”

“Today?”

I felt so sad and disappointed. I was sure that he would at least remember my birthday. But Jin simply turned around and walked away like nothing had happened. Then I shouted,

“Wait!”

“What, you have something to say?” Jin turned around and faced me.

“Tell me you love me.” I said.

“What?”

“Tell me!”

I was hoping that Jin would say the words, but he said some cold words instead,

“I don’t want to say “I love you” so easily. If you are so desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”

That is what he said. And then he ran off. My legs felt numb and I collapsed, flopping down onto the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily. How could he? I felt that maybe he wasn’t the right guy for me. After that day, I stranded myself at home, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. Instead, he continued giving me a little doll every morning outside of my house. That’s how all those dolls piled up in my room. After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But my pain resurfaced when I saw him on the street with another girl. He had a smile on his face, one that showed me he never touched the doll. I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room and tears fell. Why did he give me these dolls? Some other girls probably picked them out. In my anger, I threw the dolls around.

Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was Jin. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside of my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I was going to forget him; that it was going to end. Then he came up to me with a big doll in his arms.

“Jo, I thought you were pissed. You really came.”

I couldn’t help but hate him. He acted as if nothing had happened and he was joking around. He held out the doll to me, as usual.

“I don’t need it.”

“What? Why?

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it onto the road.

“I don’t need this doll. I don’t need it anymore! I don’t want to see you ever again!”

I spat the words that were in my heart. I didn’t expect a reaction from him, but his eyes seemed watery.

“I’m sorry.” Jin’s voice sounded small as he apologized.

He walked into the road to pick up the doll.

“You’re so stupid! Why are you picking up the doll? Just throw it away!” I shouted.

But he ignored me and picked up the doll. Then…

Honk! Honk!

A big truck was heading towards him. My eyes widened in terror.

“Jin, move! Move away from the road!”

But he didn’t hear me. He squatted down and picked up the doll.

“Jin, move!”

HONK!!!

Boom!

The sound was terrifying. It haunted me.

But that’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that way, I had to go through every day with guilt and sorrow and after spending two months like a crazy person I took out the dolls. They were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days that I spent with him and started to count the days when we were in love.

One, two, three…that was how I started to count the dolls.

Four hundred and eighty-four, four hundred and eighty-five…it ended with four hundred and eight-five dolls.

I started to cry again with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly. And then…

“I love you, I love you.” I dropped the doll, shocked.

“I…I love you?”

I picked up the doll and pressed its stomach.

“I love you, I love you.”

It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomachs as they piled up on the side.

“I love you!”

“I love you!”

“I love you!”

The words came out nonstop. I love you. Why didn’t I realize that? His heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much? I took out the doll under the bed and pressed its stomach. It was the last doll, the one that fell on the road, the one that had Jin’s bloodstain on it. The voice came out, the one that I missed so much.

“I love you, Jo….

Do you know what today is? We’ve been in love with each other for four hundred and eighty-six days. I couldn’t say that I loved you since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you every day until I die, Jo. I love you.”

The tears came flowing out of my eyes. Why? Why? I asked God, why do I only know about this right now? He can’t be by my side but he loved me until his last moment.

For that and for that reason, it became my courage to live a beautiful life.

Just did a facebook quiz :D

July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying.

I guess it's very true :D

And then I did the "how many kids will you have?" quiz too and my results was ;

Baoyi took the How many kids will you have? quiz and the result is 2 Boys
They will have a very good relationship with each other. The older one will always look after his kid brother, and set a good example for him. Get ready to buy lots of food because your refrigerator will need to be stocked up often!

LOL :X and then meimei got 3 girls.
Thus, we came up with the plan that, my "sons" marry her "daughters" hohoho :D
But there will be one guy left out :X

As usual, one week passed.
And it's the 10th day I'm waiting for the letter from bff ):
Each time I open the letter box, there isn't any letter for me ):
Doing Situational Writing now which I'm very pleased with because my handwriting is so neat and nice (:
Went to the library with Hillary after school today.
Was doing A.math homework while she used all my colour pens to colour her drawing >: (
After that, we went to Pizza Hut to eat and gossiped :D

You told me to forget and give up,
but how could I possibly do it?
I love you ]:

Just read someone's blog.
Now I miss my daddy,
Why can't I feel fatherly love?
Why must you go when I'm still so young,
when I don't even know anything yet.
Am I a jinx? =/

Happy April Fools' Day darlings :D

5 more hours to school D:

Disadvantages of today are :
- Since it's april fools' , you might not know what pranks your friends are going to play on you.
- I'm going to fall alseep during lessons seeing the time I'm sleeping today ._.

Advantages of today is :
Thank god it's April already :D
It's a brand new month which means my SMS counter gets to go for a slimming session :D
Since I burnt a huge hole in my phone bill last month =/

I bet everyone is rushing through their geography report now, same here T_T
Our report is screwed because we have 1,800+ words -.-

Time to sleep, nights peeps :D